google this

If you pull up google maps and use the live mode it starts out by centering you over Lawrence, Kansas. Apparently the guy who developed Google maps graduated from KU.


Buddhists believe Americans have what they call “monkey minds.” This is a Buddhist term to describe the constant jumping around of our minds from one thought or worry to the next.

good food, horrible name

Fridays we eat lunch out at work. For me, it’s the only day I eat out. There are 4 of us who make this journey out every Friday and it takes us FOREVER to decide where we going. We have to accommodate my ‘no red meat or pork’ eating habits and the new dieting habits of two of my co-workers. Some weeks we start discussions on Thursday afternoon and still won’t have a spot picked out as Friday at 11:30 rolls around. Today we somehow settled (quickly) on a new place called Cheddars. It’s a horrible, horrible name….I honestly have NO idea what it has to do with anything. But regardless of the name, today i learned that good god do they have great food. And that means a lot coming from me. I can take food or leave it…so for me to be impressed may mean you might want to check it out. But if you do, pick an off time as I also learned today that it’s damn near impossible to get in the place.

i still miss you

I had a dream last night…one of those dreams that is so vivid you KNOW it is actually happening. You remember the feels and the smells and when you wake up you’re not sure what was real and what wasn’t. But I knew none of this one was real because when i woke up I remembered you’re still dead.

But for a few moments last night in the in between…I got you back.

You were playing drums. You didn’t play drums…I know that. But you were playing them at some house party. Not well…but it was funny. Then when you left this little stage someone had set up you came over to me and gave me a hug. One of your hugs that always made someone feel so unbelievably safe. You were a good hugger…anyone will tell you that. They even talked about that at your memorial. Then you walked away and I knew you weren’t coming back.

And then I woke up…back to the place where you are not anymore.